Monday, May 19, 2014

For now and for future...

She woke at 4 ish in the evening nauseous  but bright eyes... the house was quiet... Hill was always quiet... quiet and sparkling clean...

When she stepped out of the suite, she heard faint voices downstairs, Dadi and Madz were deep in conversation....
Dadi smiled as she saw her approach...

Madhavi made a pretense of standing up to greet and hug her "We are SO GLAD you are back my love" she said...
Khanak responded with a "Hmmm"
"I know HOW much you want a family... its always been part of your life's goals" as if she knew Khanak from puberty or before
Dadi waved to HL...

Khanak didnt care for MIL's sermonizing or patronizing, a wave of thrill passed through her at the thought that she had a baby inside her... a little worm of a thing... the size of a pea? it didnt matter it was hers...

"I dont think Shaan never pictured himself with kids... you know how some men are"

Dadi Shhhh Madhavi... thats all in the past now...
M:Mom... I mean they have been working out or smoothening cracks so its OK (insistent)
D: He brought her home...
M:That he did (disappointed?)
Khanak was quiet as usual.... just flipping through some fashion fluff magazine, that had her MIL's picture.. on some women's empowerment event...

The men lived real lives, if the women stayed home... their lives were meaningless... in a high society setting...

"Shaan loved the freedom, independence the sense of having no responsibilities" Madhavi continued...
"Look who is here" she heard Sunil

"I thought you were @ work" Khanak said joyous...
"I am going to hover over you like a drone, until you have that baby" Sunil waved a finger in warning
Madhavi giggled like she did care...

"I" began Khanak

"You acted in fear" Sunil said glumly
NONE of them knew the circumstances under which she was brought home... or the serious fight they had had...

"The Doc will be here at 8" Sunil said softly
"Dad I have Dr Mehta" she said...

"I know, Khanak... she consults at Khushboo's birthing clinic" Madhavi admitted smugly

HL brought an array of food and snacks... her life had transformed 4 weeks ago... that morning she started throwing up... the thing she had desperately been seeking, the thing that would anchor her to the ground... as she flew in the Concorde... married to Shantanu Gujral

She hoped they would fight less, she hoped he would be home more... she hoped... 
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He did NOT see himself with a whiny crying baby...it was not HIS vision of life... he knew it was her vision. 
He can now ping her, go pick her up at work, and whisk her away to dinner, a weekend getaway to Goa... or Matheran... or Singapore...
He was the apple of her eyes... they fought like cats... made love like they have been separated for years...
She couldn't wait to breast feed, he couldn't bear to see anyone or anything on her breasts except himself....
He gritted his teeth at that thought...
He was never dishonest with her, when they made out in his rec room after the engagement he told her he hated kids...
He had not missed one opportunity since...
"I am just going to find a way to have some then" she said once chuckling...
He had shown her what he felt about that dare.....




She abandoned him the moment she found herself pregnant... like nothing else mattered to her anymore
It was painfully difficult for him to forgive her for that... he no longer felt guilty about not wanting kids... her disappearance overwhelmed and consumed and erased any thoughts or feelings of remorse he held about not wanting to be a Dad...

Nine months... thats all he had... with her... life was going to change forever...

The thought of starting a family was running through her mind every time they made love... the thought he didnt want ANY was running through his...

If her disappearance was intended to shock him and make him give in and accept the arrival...

Well... he'd have to think about that........., he never thought too far out in the horizon about his personal life. He was consumed by his professional one

For now... he knew he wanted retribution




11 comments:

  1. 2 different views in life.. loved it..

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  2. wowww!! aditeee!! one of the bestest updates ever :)))
    awww bth wanted different things n nw able to adjust to the change will be hard especially for shaan as he w always just wanted her and no one else :)))
    sunil is so protective of khanak loved his talk with khanak :))
    shaan is angry she left without even thingjng of him he is right its like he wasn't important to her :(((
    wish he calms down after the revenge lol!
    thank you aditee for a fantastic update :D

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  3. Loved it!!! ♥ Khanak back to her home and Madz is not happy..She is too much..Only status matter for her..

    Shaan doesnt want responsibility..He craves it in work..Why not in his personal life?

    Sunil is so happy..He must want a grand daughter..:)

    Shaan needs to be home more and spend time with her a lot..♥

    Shaan is so possessive and yet not ready to share Khanak to his own child..lolzzz

    Btw he is angry, scared & being selfish, etc are all right..After all when she found out she is pregnant she fled & left him..She chose their offspring over him..

    Now he all set for punishing Khanak for her disappearance..All ready he made her to lose her job..What more he gonna do?

    Looking forward and thank you for writing a fabulous update!!! ♥ ♥ ♥

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  4. :(((
    this means shan has no feelings for his baby :( how ? :P
    she abandoned him like nothing else mattered to her obviously shan will feel bad about this and he can take revenge for that
    BUT after her pregnancy too his feelings has not changed :( thats sad to know
    sometimes lagta hai khanak did right sometimes not :P
    in all this one reality made me blush heheheheehee
    "She couldn't wait to breast feed, he couldn't bear to see anyone or anything on her breasts except himself...."
    hayeeeeeeeee :)
    update soon aditee still i m confused and sad :(

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  5. Gosh! LOVED IT!!!

    I want more of this story for HIS side! Always more intrigued on how he thinks!

    The pink line caught me in the moment...Khanak needs to give it some time for him to process and accept....

    Hmmm! Love how HE is thinking. It was bound to be a massive change for him when he EXPLICITLY never wanted a child…But what I liked more is how is rationalizes it because he just wants and needs her...

    I knew it, he was angry for the runner…she never thought about him. I always wanted be her ‘everyone and everything’ and this line has kept its promise till now…And some might be angry with his NO recognition of the baby, but as I said before its partially justified he is kind of person who thinks in the NOW.

    The blue…what will he do! Waiting impatiently!

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  6. Two different people with vast expections......lovely reading the thoughts of shaan......he seems right and wrong........a baby is part of him and nothing can change this......some changes are good.....maybe she be his more ways than ever after the baby ;-)

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  7. Beautiful Aditee just awesome <3 <3
    Loved reading what both were thinking & their views!
    He is angry she left him he has not planned anything on personal or family front. The day they met everything that happened in their life was destined to happen! They were destined to unite they always had this strong connection & bond which is eternal! He has not been happier or needed anyone or anything more than her she is something that he can't live without same is the case with her they are growing in this relationship it's not easy for him to change immediately for the new changes which he has not prepared,thought or planned for !
    Loved the blue & pink lines
    Eagerly waiting for next to read more about his current thoughts &feelings
    Thanks Love u loads <3 <3

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  8. all the updates are amazing, just hoping these two can find a middle ground and work things out somehow

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  9. Aditee marvellous update

    Madhavi is not happy with Khanak back to home and faked happiness and Khanak ignored what she said
    Loved how Sunil is happy and how he cared for Khanak as she was pregnant

    Both Shantanu and Khanak can't live without each other but expectations from each other is so different

    Khanak wanted him to give her more time

    Shantanu is not yet ready to be a dad even when Khanak is pregnant and he don't want any responsibility and he only cares for work

    Shantanu is so possessive of Khanak and he is not ready to share her even with his own baby

    Shantanu felt bad and angry because Khanak choose their unborn baby over him and flew away from him when she got news of pregnant not thinking about him

    Shantanu wanted to punish Khanak for her disappearance

    Looking forward

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  10. superb update Aditee...............loved reading Shantanu's thoughts..........each and every word...........i don't find him unjustified............he has always been very possessive about his wife!! Khanak wanting a baby is also very natural.........her thrill at having a baby inside her is also bound to be there..........if only the pink line was possible with such different personalities!!

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  11. A beautiful poetic update...so very lovely
    Beautiful thoughts ...two sides of the coin.....

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